THE LAST BAG
Updated: Mar 12, 2019
I haven’t written about pumping or breast milk in awhile. It’s been a long time since I’ve actively thought about it (aside from my workshops). It’s a funny thing, given how much space it once took up in my life and mind. There’s certainly no shortage of posts - you can read about how I became an exclusive pumper, my emergency ‘save the milk’ campaign during a power outage, and my experience weaning right here on my blog. But life moves on quickly and once I was done pumping, I was just done pumping. And when Avi turned 1, my thoughts on breast milk became even more infrequent, as we starting give him whole milk and a lot more solid food.
But last week, I was brought back to my journey as I looked into my freezer. A large chest freezer that we bought last year, when we moved into our house. A freezer that was bought, in large part, as a solution to my breast milk storage challenge. A freezer that was once completely filled with milk. I looked inside and saw one lonely bag. The very last bag.
Somewhere along the way, I had gotten into the habit of writing little messages on milk bags before freezing them. They would say things like ‘pumped on an airplane!’ or ‘Happy New Year’. Every time I pulled one of these bags, I would smile, thinking about the day that I pumped it. My last bag of milk had a simple message on it to both Avi and to me, ‘last bag <3 love you Mushki.
With that last bag of milk came all of the emotions - all the ups and downs that I went through to provide this milk for Avi. Each and every bag was an effort, a sacrifice, and an act of love. I’m so proud of myself for sticking with it. I’m so grateful that luck and biology gave me an ample milk supply. I’m so glad that I completely miscalculated how much milk Avi would drink as he approached 1-year...which is the only reason the milk lasted as long as it did. And I’m so appreciative for the love and support of my family, friends, and colleagues that allowed me to complete this journey.
My personal pumping journey has inspired me to become a Lactation Counselor and Pumping Expert so that I could help other moms have successful and positive experiences in pumping. Click here to learn more.